Wednesday, October 7, 2015

Yizkor Sermon 2015 Yom Kippur

Yizkor Sermon 2015 Yom Kippur
Yizkor is a beloved service intent on providing an opportunity to memorialize those who went before us and to pray that we will be able to live up to the legacy they have left us. 
How do we memorialize our loved ones?  Many of us did this last night before we came here together  – we lit a yartziet candle.  A simple act! Something we probably never even thought about.  Every once in a while, I will get a question – why do we light this candle? 

This service I would like us to reflect on the yartziet candle.  It is a power symbol. 

It is a flame.  Fire allowed civilization to begin.  The ability to cook food, see at night, provide heat, melt metals and purify ourselves, are all because of fire.  Yet fire is also destructive, simply look at the wild fires raging across California and the Pacific Northwest or think of a home which has caught fire and destroyed a family. 

In the Torah we see fire from the very beginning.  God created fire – at the very beginning before there was even a sun – there was primordial light.  When Abraham speaks with God and binds himself to God, he sacrifices an animal and passes a fiery torch between the two pieces.  That torch is a representation of God.  When Moses encounters God, he does so at a burning bush which has a special fire, one which does not consume.  When the Israelites traveled through the desert, there was a pillar of cloud by day and a pillar of fire by night.  When God gave Moses the Ten Commandments on Mt. Sinai, God descended in smoke and Fire.  Lastly there was a ner tamid, an eternal fire burning at the Temple.  Just look here; we have one representing that eternal fire in our sanctuary. 

Fire is always present for significant moments in our history.   Yet when we observe Shabbat, there are 39 categories of work prohibited by the rabbis; these explicitly include the use of fire.  Yet we celebrate Shabbat first by lighting Shabbat candles and we end Shabbat by lighting a havdallah candle.  It is a special time sandwiched between two candles -- time when we pause and reflect on our life. 

Again let’s think about fire which is needed for cooking, heating and even building.  At significant moments in the Jewish people’s historic relationship with God, fire is present.  When God and Abraham build a covenant, fire is present.  When the people receive the Torah – the blueprint for a Jewish life – fire is present.  When the Jewish people prayed to God in the Tent of Meetings and later in the Temple – fire is present.  Fire is present when the creative process is occurring.  Building a people, building a nation or building a homeland all involved fire.  Yet on Shabbat, it is a day of rest.  A day not to create, but a day to contemplate; Shabbat is a day to turn inward and allow the fire inside of us the fire of our soul, to shine forth and breath. 

Judaism has a very important lesson about life – that which has tremendous power for the good, also has tremendous power for destruction and bad.  It, like everything else in life is not all good, nor is it all bad, it depends how it is used.   The thing which offers us so much joy, also can offer us so much sorrow. 

It is like our very relationships.  At times our relationships with those around us can bring us great joy, and be a powerful force in our life helping us become a better person.  While other times, those same relationships can be so destructive and cause so much pain. No one has an all good or an all bad relationship with someone.  Instead there are times when it is full of sparks for the good and bad. 

I was given an extraordinary gift – to be raised by imperfect parents.  They tried their best to help shape and form me into the best that I can be.  There are times when I love them for all of the gifts they have given me and times when I resent them for other things they have given me.  Yet I know on a primal level they loved me more deeply than most anyone else ever will. 

I was given another gift – the love of a partner who is no more or less flawed than I am myself.  He accepts and loves me most of the time, understands me and sees me for who I am. 

I have been given the gift of children for whom I try hard to be a “good enough” mother to - to love them, to give to them, and to be present for them even when I am passed the point of exhaustion. 

I have been blessed with an amazing congregation and community who tries its best to do the right for each other and to be “good enough” to one another.  Though there are times, when things are done and words are said which we regret, we love one another. 

The flame of the yartzeit candle reminds us every year when we light it to be able to forgive.  It reminds us that inside of us is a soul whose “spirit within is the lamp of God Eternal.”[1]  Perhaps that is why we light the yizkor candle.  The fire is contained, but it has a bright and powerful glow to it.  The candle represents the neshamah the soul of a person, whose life force, whose fire, whose energy was extinguished.  During the Yizkor service, we take a moment to remember our loved ones.  As the light of those who have gone before us, surround us on the walls behind us, they provide warmth and comfort to us.  They are a guide to us, showing us the way forward and reminding us of where we have been.  It reminds us that our loved ones were not perfect and neither are we.   

Rabbi Abraham Sofer, the son of the famous Chatam Sofer, taught that the yizkor candle must be used.  It was not to be simply lit, and then placed off to the side.  It was intended to bring into our lives another spark, if only for a short moment.  The flame, which represents our parents, grandparents and yes at times even our children, provides a light into our own lives.  Rabbi Sofer therefore teaches us, by not having that light separate from us, but including it with our Shabbat candles, on the table where we eat, or in a prominent place in our home where we can see it, the flame brings a spark from our loved ones into our lives today and adds to the joy in our hearts as opposed to a sad moment commemorating what was lost. 

That is the light which helps us contribute to the world around us through deeds of tikkun olam, repairing the world, by bringing love and compassion to those around us. 
The light of the yartzeit candle is a gentle light, not glaring, but able to tenderly show us the things which we might find hard to look at under the power of a glare. It can help us look deep within ourselves to the parts of us we are not so happy with.  It can help us find the ability to embrace that part of us and start to work on the practice of forgiveness.  To forgive ourselves for not being perfect, for failing to meet up to expectations and fantasies impossible to fulfill.  To love ourselves – all of our parts – even the nose we got from our great aunt Fegelah. 

It is only when we finally start to love ourselves that we can start to love others.  That is the meaning of the verse “to love your neighbor as yourself.” We need that light to open ourselves up to cherishing the aspects of the good in ourselves and others. 

So I am grateful for this candle, it helps remind me of the imperfection which is around us, it helps remind me of the deep connection I and our community have with God, it helps remind me of those who came before us.

“Blessed is the One who is far beyond all the blessings and hymns, all the praises and words of comfort that we speak in the world.  And blessed are those who are now far beyond my words, my praise, my voice – even my silence.”[2]




[1] Proverb 20:27
[2] Mshkan HaNefesh, Yom Kippur, p.572

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